May 5, 2019

Dear Dad,

I feel a lot less stressed now that the spring expo is over and done with. I wish you could have come and seen it, even though I was sick as Hell. I'm still so happy I won those Husqvarna suspenders in the silent auction last year. You seemed to enjoy them.

I've got some stupid business going on with Kane. He's being a stubborn jerk and I've lost my patience with him. Losing you changed me, I'm not the same person I was. Learning to be this person who doesn't have you in their life anymore is pretty devastating. I feel the emptiness and it's so sharp around your things. I go see your truck now and then and I just want to climb into the passenger seat to go off on an adventure with you. No guy could ever replace you, Daddykins. I'll always be your fishing buddy. We had the best stories and I'm so glad you got to come see me in California. I'm sorry we never made it to Norway but I think you understand my reasons for breaking up with the Norwegian.

I hope the crap with Kane fixes itself. I'm pretty tired of it. I've got an interesting week ahead too. McHappy Day and that dinner. Hopefully we get some nice weather.

I love you, Dad. I miss you so much. You'd be prepping your trailer and getting ready for camping now, if you hadn't already. I really hope we can keep it somehow.

Goodnight, Daddy. Come visit me in my dreams and we can have a laugh over stuff.

Love always and miss you forever.

~Chrissy

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